I normally am a pretty happy go lucky kind of gal. Yeah, I have my moments, just like everyone else but I've learned through the years you pick yourself up & go - at least in our household you'd eventually get left behind - ha! I've shared some tough moments here on my blog, but I tend to keep most of that private. Heck this blog started during one of the darkest time of my life. And I'm lucky that I don't have a ton of tough moments. We work through them as a family & continue on. Life as a military wife has made me a stronger better wife, mom & person.
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Judge Me Not Canvas 8x10 WIP |
This week has been especially tough for me. There is no grave illness & we still have a roof over our head, it's not that serious, but what happened to me earlier on this week has tested me. I go back & forth with guilt, shame, anger, & tears. I can't even completely talk about it without crying. So I'm on day 2 of "dealing with it". How did day one go? I survived, walked through the motions, but I walked around numb. I felt like a shell of a person. Not even sushi, beading & blogging could salvage my day. I normally bounce back after a few hours at most a day, but not this time. I woke up this morning feeling better but there is still a black cloud in my heart. I don't know how long this will last. I am forcing myself to go to my workout tonight. I force a smile, but it's becoming less forced.
So I stick to what I know. I find something to feed my soul. I go back time & again to a canvas with a sentiment. Here's the beginnings of a new one. And many thanks to this
little sweetheart & her talented mom. You were the source of inspiration for my canvas. Thank you for sharing.
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Judge Me Not detail Acrylic on Canvas 8x10 |