A Little Serious Time

I normally am a pretty happy go lucky kind of gal.  Yeah, I have my moments, just like everyone else but I've learned through the years you pick yourself up & go - at least in our household you'd eventually get left behind - ha!  I've shared some tough moments here on my blog, but I tend to keep most of that private.  Heck this blog started during one of the darkest time of my life.  And I'm lucky that I don't have a ton of tough moments.  We work through them as a family & continue on.  Life as a military wife has made me a stronger better wife, mom & person.

Judge Me Not Canvas 8x10 WIP

This week has been especially tough for me.  There is no grave illness & we still have a roof over our head, it's not that serious, but what happened to me earlier on this week has tested me.  I go back & forth with guilt, shame, anger, & tears.  I can't even completely talk about it without crying.  So I'm on day 2 of "dealing with it".  How did day one go?  I survived, walked through the motions, but I walked around numb.  I felt like a shell of a person.  Not even sushi, beading & blogging could salvage my day.  I normally bounce back after a few hours at most a day, but not this time.  I woke up this morning feeling better but there is still a black cloud in my heart.  I don't know how long this will last.  I am forcing myself to go to my workout tonight.  I force a smile, but it's becoming less forced.

So I stick to what I know.  I find something to feed my soul.  I go back time & again to a canvas with a sentiment.  Here's the beginnings of a new one.  And many thanks to this little sweetheart & her talented mom.  You were the source of inspiration for my canvas.  Thank you for sharing.

Judge Me Not detail Acrylic on Canvas 8x10